i was out last night with a long time girl friend 'til we both ponder on the topic whether or not i'm ready to enter into a relationship again ... and yes up to know, im still asking myself the same question, am i?
after quite a day of in and out thoughts about the matter, i must admit it that im afraid to enter into one right now, but of course i miss cuddling someone, being with someone and all that bf-gf stuff. but im not sure if i would be able to manage to be into one and at the same time be in law school. things are a lot different now, time and attention is such a very important ingredient in law school, and same goes in a relationship as well. probably if the guy is from school or a lawyer perhaps, then it would it be easier, for he knows what kind of shit im dealing with.
the fact is that i wouldn't be able to go out and spend time with him as much as i want to, school is my priority and that will remain until i get to be a lawyer. if the guy would be someone from the other field of profession, then it would be difficult to understand where im coming from; whenever he would ask me out, be it for a important event or a plain gimmik and i decided to stay home and study ... im sure it wouldn't be fine from his end and as for me, i would also have a hard time concentrating for i know he's out there (and the possibility of flirting would always be there); and if i decided to join him, then i wouldn't be able to study for my class the following day. one will definitely suffer, and of course i wouldn't like that to happen.
i wanna give all my best in school, and i also wanna give all the love i could give for him, but how? oh well, ill cross the bridge when i get there, i know for a fact that when im there, i would always find a way, who doesnt anyways, haha ;)
let's see .........
