Where Are We going?

After the Jose Pidal Case, then came the jueteng issues and inline with that, the gloriagate scam! Sigh, Philippine politics … such a world of unending turmoil!

After the President delivered her live speech last Monday evening; after the apology has been said and done, after the announcement that the First Gentleman will be leaving the country (voluntarily) for the rest of the President’s reign … I ask you now, what’s next?

Yesterday at around 6pm, there was an on-going rally along the circumference of the “Scout” Rotonda (QC). Then earlier when I was on my way home, I passed thru the stretch of University Ave. fronting City Mall (QC), again, another rally was held. There were banners and streamers which says “OUST GLORIA”. With these two rallies which I personally witnessed, I’m pretty sure there were a lot more rallies held and will be held sooner or later.

But what is it that you, I and the rest of the Filipino people really want? Who do you think is the best suited to be our president – Gloria, Noli, Loren, Susan (Roces) or Drilon? Well, whenever a snap election will be done, the senate president will be the acting president for a while, then who’s gonna run – Gloria vs FPJ, but he’s already dead … so does that mean his beloved Susan will be the one who’s gonna continue his so-called “legacy”, DANG!!! Whatta the %{#< !! Please don’t get me wrong here, I’m not so for Mrs. Macapagal – Arroyo, but I prefer her than Ms. Susan Roces.

The economic crisis that’s been happening to us right now, the Philippines being known as an UNSTABLE country and the land of the abu’s, is just an obvious proof that we have a bunch of WEAK leaders. What’s happening is that these so-called and/or self-acclaimed “leaders” first attends to their own personal interests before addressing the country’s and the peoples needs. The word service which they promised us all during their campaign, is now forgotten and I guess, possibly buried six feet underground. I’m sure, the first thing they did during their first few days in office is to “return the favor” to those people who helped them WIN the election! HAHH! Don’t fool me, I know how dirty the game of politics is!

Going back to the President’s speech last Monday evening, do you think she was still able to get the trust and the charisma of the people? After like telling the entire nation that’s she’s sorry for what she did, now she’s asking for unity and oneness with her. After delivering a speech before the Makati Business Club stating the volunteered exile of his husband, now she’s laying all her cards on the matters of (so-called) sacrifices she and her family has done and will be doing. Duhhh, how pathetic could she be?!! These kind of issues (sacrifices) should no longer be brought up, or it shoudn’t be announced at all … why should you, not unless she’s asking for the people to sympathize with her. DUHHH!!!??!!!

Now I ask you, where do you think are we going with all these chaos and turmoil at hand?! To the President, what is your next step, madam? Will there ever be a peaceful Philippines - where the leaders and the people are one? Sigh … I hope so …

The POLITICO …

Some of you may be wondering why the heck do I bother to write and say my insights about the politicians? Considering the fact that no one in my immediate family is a politician nor used to be a politician. Well, my paternal grandfather (may he RIP) used to be a governor and one of my tito’s and cousins is an incumbent councilor though. But the main reason is that I was brought up with a lot of politicians around me, not just with my relatives but more of family friends.

By the time President Aquino took presidency, a very good and a close friend of my folks was appointed Mayor, I was in my second grade then (huhh Maryknoll days). I remember hanging out at the Mayor’s office, playing with my tito’s (the mayor) chair whenever he’s not around or in a meeting, and would even ask his bodyguards to push me around the room while sitting, and I would walk along the stretch the conference table as if it were a catwalk. I would invade his personal ref and would do my homeworks at the Conference room. When I’m bored, I would then go to my other tito’s offices who were councilors back then.

From that time on, I knew that I’d then be surrounded by politicians for the rest of my life. True enough, now that I’ve grown as a young professional, I’ve met a lot of aged and young politicians and were even able to established friendship with them.

What can I say about these politicians? Have you ever been intimidated by any them? Ha! I say don’t be! Why should you? Hhmmm, they’re also humans like us. We do eat the same food, drink the same water, so what’s the big deal? Why get intimidated, huh?! These politicians are people like you and me! I have my problems and issues in life, same with you I suppose, definitely the same with them! These politicians (well, I can speak for my politician friends) are cool to hang out with and they really make good company (I can attest to that). You’ll get to know the real them, the person behind those handshakes, speeches, etc. You’ll get to know their insights, personality, dreams, frustrations and all, then you’ll say, “ah ganon pala ‘yon”, and/or “ah kaya pala” ….

I say don’t be too judgmental with them, do give them a chance to lay their cards and/or prove their word to you guys.

Let’s face it, there are a lot of politicians who got this “hidden agenda” thing why they opted to run and have a seat in the government. Well, to tell you honestly, politics is really a dirty game … there’s no such thing as a clean one! You have to be tough in order to survive. You have to have the guts and charm to win the people and so with your co-politicians heart. There are even times that you have to play blind, deaf and mute. And yes, money DOES matter!!

Money takes a vital part in the field of politics, especially during the campaign period. For me, I find the campaign period a “go big time” and a one shot casino deal. But once you win, HAH!!! Dude, it’s pay back time!

Have you ever wondered why these politicians accept “lagay, jueteng payola, etc.” Well, it’s because a lot of people, mostly from the depressed areas come to them for help; basically monetary assistance and/or others. So, in order to help and give such amount to the less fortunate ones, they accept money from such an unwanted deed.

As what I’ve told you earlier, I’m well surrounded by a lot of politicians around me, like later, we’ll be going to I.O. (abscbn) to sing their (sila lang, not me :) ) lungs out. Being good friends with some of these politicians and being “so-so friends” with the others made me realized that there’s really such a thing as a T-R-A-S-H politician. Damn! There’s one who doesn’t even know how to deliver speeches before a crowd, another who doesn’t know how to execute the proper way of doing handshakes, another who’s projects are all crappy (just for the thought of having a project, whatever goes na lang), some (politicians) are really junk, hollow minded, knows nothing except for “rampa”. There are even a few who aren’t genuine constituents of the area they ran at – geeshh, the nerve! How pathetic could they be!

On the other hand, there are a few whose thrust is really to serve and to help. Has good and superb projects, doesn’t pretend to be someone they’re not, an approachable person who really has a heart for the people. I love these guys who remain humble in spite of their fame and all, that the colloquial meaning of the word “career” best applies to them. I salute you guys!

To wrap things up, let me just remind you that the next time you’ll come across a politician; deserving or a trash … hmmm, I guess a smile will do, haha :) If you could sit and start a conversation with them, GO! That’ll be better!


THE TOP 5 MOST COMMON THINGS YOU’LL SEE INSIDE A POLITICIAN’S CAR:

1 Alcohol
2 Mints
3 A bunch of hanged clothes
4 Pieces of papers (speeches, schedules, solicitations, etc)
5 A couple of bottled waters

... gigs ...

What is it about local bands that I’m so fond of? I used to be a huge fan of the After Image band way back middle school days. Aside from After Image, I also enjoy listening to Eraser Heads, Alamid, Introvoys, and others. I even thought of buying a red pair of DM’s coz I saw Wency Cornejo wearing one. I also have my own set of drums here at home, and mom even got a private tutor for me. My classmates and I would watch After Image’s gig as often as we could, we would even call “Bobit” - After Image’s rhythm’s, and guess what … Bobit was part of my 18 Roses thingy when I had my debut! Hahaha! :)

During those days, I thought that the band thingy was just a stage wherein every normal gurl would pass and eventually out-grow. Well, I no longer hit my drums, though I still have it here at home, I no longer listen to NU 107, I already trashed my After Image’s CD’s and tapes. But my love for local bands? Nahhh, I’m still a follower!!

I so love Side A – who doesn’t anyways?! Next to Side A is South Border, FreeStyle, U-turn, etc. etc. Acoustic? PAOLO SANTOS is the name! MichaelAngelo, MYMP, Nyoy Volante and Thor as well.

But what is it with those abovementioned bands and artists that I can’t let go of? Not to mention that I’m friends with Paolo Santos and Mike of MichaelAngelo, MYMP … we’re school mates, Chin used to be my classmate. I remember watching Pao at Ipanema way back 2001, he wasn’t PAOLO SANTOS yet, I would watch him every Wednesday there, and I would watch all his gigs as long as it’s in Ortigas and Eastwood. He would eat his meal in our table and would play my requests (w/ matching kanchaw pa), I even asked him to sign the two CD’s I bought, this was his line then “pati ba naman ikaw magpapasign pa, friends tayo wala na dapat sign sign” hahaha, oh Paolo! I’m a Pao fan, I’m a Pao follower! Even up to this day I still go to his gigs but it’s not as often as before. I love his style, I love his voice, I love Pao – platonically, so don’t get me wrong!

Just last night, Blueboy and I watched FreeStyle’s gig. They’re really good! Jinky’s performance level was superb. Joshua, aside from being cute (and I love his body) sings well too, he’s distinct style makes me (and the crowd) kilig, and I love the way he dances and his hand gestures is drivin’ me nuts (he also posses a big pair of hands, hahaha!). JOSHUA!!!

I guess my love and passion for local bands and solo artists will forever be a part of my system. Watching and singing with them makes me relax and eases my stress. They’re like an outlet, a way wherein I could unwind, be with friends, reminisce and feel inlove!!

To all the bands and artists, kampai!! ;)

layogenic JOSH ...

all i could say is:

"sigh ... you're so damn cute josh!!!" 'though you're layogenic, it's ok, you're still a cutee!!! :) you're voice and the way you sing is so damn cool!"

FYI, i'm talking about Joshua of FreeStyle. 'just watched their gig a few hours ago :)

... am i a wild flower??

“ :( why do you always have to be the one who opts for self-denial and freedom from gratification?”

Those were the exact words of a good friend. Honestly, it strucked me and made me think … Am I by choice happened to be a “wild flower”? Is there such basis when he asked me why do I always opt for self-denial and freedom from gratification?

You see, I haven’t been in a relationship for the longest time now, say 10 months today to be exact! It’s a mixture of choice and chance I guess. Yes, I do have boylets around – some of those guys even posses NAMES and all, while some are just plain citizens like me. I’m the type of gurl who gives minimal attention to one’s money and name, what’s important is his personality and the manner he carries himself. The “spark thingy” is very important. There must be a connection between us two. Well, I guess the spark plug is busted that’s why I don’t get to choose from my boylets yet. I know who I’am, I know my worth! Let’s just say, I don’t wanna settle for less, the mediocre ones. I’m no desperate gurl who’s gonna enter a relationship just for the heck of it. I prefer to wait, for I know that it’ll knock at the right time and at the right place, when it comes, I know it’s gonna be a surreal one.

“Self-denial and freedom from self-gratification” … hhmmm, strong words huhh!?! :) Now, allow me to say my piece, your honor! I never denied anything, every time I fancy someone, I know that to myself and I definitely tell my close friends about it, maybe not to the person involved. Well, if there’s a strong need to tell the guy I like him, I would do so … but it’s on case to case basis!

Self-gratification … I’m a happy-go-lucky gurl, a care-free and worry-free young lady, a free-spirit. I say I’m a 21st century woman who has a strong hold of her morals and values. I don’t wanna live a complicated life. I don’t need excess luggages on my journey. I don’t like a guy who’s full of problems and hung-ups. Dude, it ain’t worth it!!!

To wrap things up, this will again bring us back to paragraph No. 3, line No. 8, “I know who I’am, I know my worth!” and to again, paragraph 3, lines 9 and 10, “I’m no desperate gurl who’s gonna enter a relationship just for the heck of it. I prefer to wait, for I know that it’ll knock at the right time and at the right place, when it comes, I know it’s gonna be a surreal one.”

So, your honor, may we now drop the case?? :)

And to you my ever dearest friend who’s also been “unattached” for the longest time now, I’m sorry for being a bit pushy. What are we waiting for, let’s go scout for the cutees, let’s party! KAMPAI!!! ;) ;)

Daddy's Li'l Girl

As we all know, today is Father’s Day? How did spent yours? As for me, we just dine out at Alex III, Tomas Morato. Wanna know who picked the place, hahaha! Who else, ME!!! A couple of days ago, I already told dad that we’ll be having dinner at Alex III on Father’s day coz I was craving for Kare-kare and their famous pork bar-b-q then. True enough, that’s what we had plus a platter of various inihaw. YUMMY! BUSOG!!!

Who paid the bill, DAD!!! :) I was suppose to, but he opted to!

I miss the days when I was still a kid, the days when I would often sit on dad’s lap, play board games with him, study with him teaching me math and science, when he would feed me crabs, shrimps, etc with his hands coz I don’t want my hands to get dirty and smelly, when he would bring and fetch me to and from school, the days that I would get a reward from getting good grades, the days that he would rest me back from mom, and many more fun days … I miss those days, I miss my dad per se!!!

He thought me a lot of things, from 1-2-3’s, to A-B-C’s, to 1+1, praying the rosary, playing snakes and ladders, answering word games, building lego’s, etc. He was even very supportive when I used to have a crush on Yeng Guiao (PBA's Sarsi team coach), he got the whole family a ticket to the team’s ball game and even asked mom to contact tito Jun and tita Beth Celis so I would get to meet Yeng in person, cool huh!

I remember one day when I was in middle school that he caught me kissing a picture of my crush (not Yeng anymore), geeesshhh! I saw him laughing and told me that it was so cheap of me to do that act! HAHAHA! :)

Another touching incident was when my BF and I broke up, it was the night of the October Fest in Tomas Morato then. When I got to our booth, dad was already there with some family friends. He asked me where my BF was, I told him he’s at home, my eyes were swollen that time, he hugged me tight and kissed me at the forehead and told me everything’s gonna be fine.

Another break up … I texted him and informed him about it. He called me at the office and asked me to go on half-day and proceed to his place. We had merienda and talked about things. He gave me comforting words, and it did helped me a lot.

I would often call dad every time I feel like drinking and couldn’t find a friend or whenever I miss him. We would hang out at some quiet place, have beer or wine, some food and of course our own cigars – yes I could smoke infront of my folks! From then on, I would speak my piece, confide my problems and/or just simply discuss politics, government issuses, environment, ect. etc.

That’s how I’am with my dad, we could talk about anything and everything under the sun. I tell him everything, my dreams, frustrations, fears, cheers, crushes, and all. I’m more close to him than my mom. We have this “father and daughter” connection. I admit it, I’m a “papa’s girl”! What I want, I get!

Dad is always there, at the right time and at the right place! He never left me hanging, he never left me alone. He would always pick me up every time I stumble. When I was in my down most moments, he was there right beside me. He always has time for me - short notice’s, I can count on him! He’s my guiding light, my mentor, my coach, my everything.

My dad showered me with so much love and care! He showed me unconditional love, a love that has no boundaries, a love that doesn’t have BUT’s and IF’s … just plain but pure LOVE! A love that I felt only from him.


… To my dad, Happy Father’s day! I owe you big time. I owe you who I’am today. I’m one lucky daughter coz you showed me love like God’s love! I love you very very much!!!

Thank you for bearing with my tantrums, hahaha! :) ‘love you!

Love Notes ...

Have you ever been in the middle of two friends who both fancies another friend of yours?

Sigh … It’s hard! It’s hard especially when your opinion does matter to that fancied friend of yours.

You like them both, they’re both cute, cool and fun to hang around with. You also know that they’ll take good care of that fancied friend of yours very well.

Sigh … I’m currently in that position, I have this two friends who fancies my buddy. I like them both, they’re nice, sweet, funny and cute! :) But I know for a fact that only of them will win my buddy's heart, only one will be loved back, while the other will be left nuts and hurting … sad …
I don't wanna see any of them, WORSE, both of them get hurt if ever my buddy would ditch them both.

But I don't wanna force things, especially if I'm not the primary character in the problem. We're talking about my buddy here, yes I do care a lot and of course, love ko sha that's why I don't wanna see my buddy upset, bothered, and/or hurt ... worse, crying! NO!!!

. . .

Have you ever wondered why LOVE goes back to back with HURT? When you open a door for love, you also open a window for hurt. These two opposite things goes hand in hand, pretty weird isn’t it, but that’s the fact!

To love is to risk! Love is full of sweet and wonderful “kilig” surprises, and at the same time, it is also a bunch of bitter surprises which will knock at your door step once in a while. Worse, the bitter ones are often remembered.

Think about it, is love worth all the pain, hurting, tears and all? Honestly, I say YES!! For I believe that it’s better to love and get hurt, than to never experience love at all. Besides, I’m a loving person, I love to give love, and be loved back. Hurting, yeah it sucks! I’ve been there a lot of times. I loved and get hurt, then love again and get hurt again, so on and so forth. Still, I’m here patiently waiting for love to knock back again.

Allow me to share one of my guiding principles, “no matter how bad a memory of something is, trust me … it still enriched you as a person”.

~ a beautiful sunset ~

I'm so upset! I'm bothered.

I like him and he likes me too.
I can see his efforts for me ...
He told me he loves me,
And I know I'm starting to love him as well.

But howcome simple issues
Can't be resolved easily?
Why can't we meet half way
And compromise things?

Oh well ....

I feel so helpless ...
I could finish a pack of yo!

I wanna text him
But I don't know what to say.
I wanna hug him right now ...

Sigh ...

Am I a fool to fall for him?
Is he worth my love, time and affection?
Will he love me the way I'll love him?

I dunno ...

I'll just stare at the photo above
And chill ... yo ... listen to chill out music
Until my eyes closes.

Tomorrow, the sun will shine,
It's gonna be a brand new day!
Can't wait for tomorrow's surprises ...
Can't wait to be back to how I used to be ...
The jolly, care-free, kikay ME!!!

Whatta Friday Night!

True! I may be living in a quiet village,
I’m quite stable, I’m well bred and educated …

But I’m also an ordinary gurl,
Standing infront of a man,
Asking him to love me!

Is it my fault if I dunno how to commute?
Is it weird if I don’t go to the market?
Is it a bad thing if a young lady like me doesn’t know how to cook?
Is it a sin if I don’t do chores at home?

Sigh …

Show me you care, and I’ll take good care of you!
Show me love, and I’ll LOVE YOU big time.
Just be a
“one woman man”
For I’am a
“one man woman’!!!

Yes, actions speaks louder than words.
but don’t you ever accuse me
of taking you for granted
or what so ever crap.
I’m just reciprocating the level of
emotions that you’re giving me.


A couple of hours ago,
I was talking and crying to blueboy
over our mobile fones.
He’s a bit upset and kept on nagging me
for I’m so gullible when it comes to love.

Oh well,
I know he’s a real friend
that’s why he told me those stuff,
that’s why he’s that honest with his opinions.
I respect that
and
I really appreciate his concern.

a STAR for the whales

June 19, 2005 is the big day!

You guys must be wondering what this
"NO WHALING" thing
is all about.
Well, well, well ...
this is all about the
innocent huge creatures
that frolics in our oceans,
the WHALES!

Guys, you still have a couple of days,
join Greenpeace's campaign!
http://whales.greenpeace.org

C'mon let's all do our share
for I know that
together we'll make a difference!

whatta shot!

got this picture from "bolg", nice isn't! :)

The End ...

as what i've said,

"all good things do come to an end,
even dreams got to end.
i have to get used not seeing you at nights,
i have to pass to a lot of things,
i have to end this dream.

i have to stop this foolishness,
i have to let go,
even though i don't want to,
i simply have to."

BE THE ONE
toni rich proj

I should be the one...
I can think of nothing better
Than to know the one you love
For as long as we've been together
We should open up my heart yeah

If I gave you my heart
Would you be the one that I love
If I told you my feelings
Would you be the one that I trust
Would you make sure everything's fine
Would you hold me close tonight
Would you be the one that I love
Will you hold me tonight

I feel like breaking down the walls
Welcome you into my world
I'm not afraid of what you find in me
I just want us to be closer, yeah


Confide in me, tell me all your fears
I wanna be, the one that you depend on
To share a dream,
Forget about the hard times that we'll face
Let's go all the way

>> i guess not!

>> na-aahhh!!!

>>> goodbye! <<<

First Time

Uhuh, so this is the so-called BLOG! It's funny, i don't have a Friendster account but I created my blog, whatever! Honestly, I really don't have any freakin' idea of what this blog thing is all about. I just wanna try it out and post some pix, no more no less ... well, let's wait and see whatever this blog thing brings to me! :)

Ha BOYS!!! where are you all? Whenever I have a bf, I often meet those "yummy" guys, and now that I'm not committed, damn ... they must be some where I don't know! Grrrrrrrr

In a nut shell, I'm happy the way life is goin', I get to date, hang around with friends, go shopping, go where ever I want to ... without having any worries that "later when i get back home, it's gonna be a One Big Fight". :)

See I'm voluptuous, hahaha! :) 

My WORST Over Night Trip

S-U-B-I-C ... all I can say is, "sigh" ... good thing I was the one who drove! NLEX? sisiw!!! :)