i've been badly stressed these past few days, from the moment mom told me that she wont support my schooling financially -- WTF where in hell does she think could i get that sum of money?!? so i was really burdened by it plus in a way i know she's undergoing treatment for her colon cancer. since i was really desperate of raising funds to cover my tuition for this 1st semester, different thoughts crossed my mind, worse, the idea of joining MR's team was really contemplated upon, but of course that was last resort. i tried to spoke with IL and check if there are any job vacancies, zero; i checked with BS for the same matter, he said he could check and come up with something for me (how nice of him huh); the thing with MR though i know that there is, and he's really eyeing me for the post was put on hold, as i said, last resort.
last saturday morning, our executive director called me and told me that i will be transferred to one of our offices and that i will no longer be working for BH, but instead ill be reporting directly to AH. at first i was hesitant, really hesitant - from the field of envi to the field of legislative work, but of course i know sooner or later i've gotta face that field, that's branch of law anyways, until today came ..... the day set for a meeting with the new boss. we discussed things very lightly in his office, he wanted me to report to work 3x a week, handle his legislative concerns and stuff pertaining to it, worse NO ADDITIONAL PAY considering the work load is a little heavier from my previous work load with BH. but yet though there's no additional pay, i realized that i would take it the job, i'm still one lucky gurl for it is them who adjusts to my sched and not me to theirs, pretty cool huh! where in this world would i get a boss who is fine with the idea that his legis ofcr would only report to his office 3x week, scattered 12 hrs in 3 days scattered depending on my school sched (9am-2pm; 9am-3pm; 9am-12nn), GOSH i'm blessed indeed.
now, back to the main issue of how in hell would i manage to produce that sum of money for my tuition?!? the answer is FORGIVENESS and FAITH IN THE LORD. again, yesterday's service was for me, it talked about children and parents, and that forgiveness is indeed the key! and so i did, i sincerely decided to forgive my mom for all the pain and hurting she caused me, for whatever reasons she may have, it's all good, she's forgiven.
going back to work issues, as ive said earlier, i realized that it'll be my loss if ever i would leave these team who are actually there to support me even in the simplest way they can, i know they care for me, that simpleng gesture of adjusting to my sched is one big deal, not all are given the same treatment. so i went to mom and told her everything, i told i wanna keep this job and i wanna be with these people, but if i'll stay, i wouldn't be able to pay my tuition, i'll be needing her support. i told her i dont want to stop or go on leave in school .... and to my surprise, yeah yeah she said a few sour statements but it's all good, what counts the most is that she will support me financially, YES!!!!!!!!!!! and for that, there's nothing more i could ask for, the problem is solved, God indeed answered my prayer.
and if there's a greater word than THANK YOU, i'd like to use that in saying THANK YOU GOD! AMEN!!!!!!!
