My Favorite Regret (Gigolo Aunts)

while i was driving my way to the family get together, i heard this song from the radio ... swak!!!!

Will you be my favorite regret,
Could I be your sweetest mistake?
Trade one step back for two ahead
Just a little time that's all
Don't be afraid to fall
This catch I won't forget,
My favorite regret.

Won't you let me chip away the stone
Are you really better off alone?
Won't you let your guard down one more time
Just like I've done mine
We'll look until we find something neither will forget
My favorite regret

My favorite regret

Will you be my favorite regret?
Cut the strings attached but save the thread
And I know your feelings are probably right
But just this once tonight
As you lay in your bed
Place a little on this bet
My favorite regret

Tonight

it's nearly a month since the day we broke up, but it was only last night that i really cried my heart out. it was so unexpected and i didn't know that i would cry that much for you ... i guess i really loved you and yes, i still do ... STILL!

Tonight (FM Static)

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

i wanna transfer school ...

WANTED ISANG TAONG MATINONG KAUSAP!

(just like my dad ... sasabog na ko!)

:(

i went to work today wearing a white boyfie top, skimpy skirt, and a wedge ... a date outfit huh! i was planning to text this certain guy whom i used to date before i started law school (he's a lawyer), but then i remembered that i'm meeting this guy who i used to go out with sometime last year ... he some sortofa "courted" me but i just can't dig his music .. K-pop, whattha! hahaha

i was on my way, he was on his way ... he's late, he made me wait for like 2 hrs (thaf*ck!, goody i've got tons of things to do in the office), to make the long story short, i opted to call it off. one reason is time and the other one (which weighs more) is i just don't feel like seeing him ... i don't feel like going out with him ... have dinner and a few dwinks, nahhh, i don't feel like it. i may be mean for this, but i just didn't feel like it. not because i'm not ready to date yet, it's just the guy i guess. if it's gonna be "jerky", the lawyer, d*mn i can't wait to see him, hahaha!

oh well, let's see as to who the 1st guy i'll date after that sh*tty break up with popo ... ;) one thing for sure, it must be BEFORE the start school!!!!!!!!!!! haha :p

minsan ...

minsan sa buhay mo kailangan mo gumawa ng mga hakbang na labag sa iyong kalooban, minsan kahit ayaw mo pero dahil kailangan, gagawin mo. minsan hindi mo na nga alam ang tama sa mali. minsan kahit masakit, tatanggapin mo na lang ng pikit mata. minsan kahit sukang-suka ka na, sisikmurain mo pa rin. minsan dahil sa pera, minsan sa pamilya ... pero madalas dahil sa pag-ibig.

di ko pa alam, di pa sigurado ... pero sigurado akong gusto ko nang umalis. pero paano kayo, kayo iniisip ko ... mauulila nanaman kayo, ano bang meron sa inyo at iniiwan kayo? minsan na kong nalagay sa kinalalagyan niyo, alam ko mahirap at sinabi ko sa sarili ko na "walang iwanan". pero may mga bagay na hindi natin kontrolado na siyang nag uudyok sakin na lumisan na.

sana maintindihan niyo ko kung sakaling gawin ko nga yon. sana hindi niyo ko kamuhian sa desisyon kong lisanin kayo...

pasensya na, pero kinlangan ko lang gawin yon para sa sarili ko ... para maghilom ang mga sugat. pasensha kung pati kayo nadamay ...

inuulit ko, di pa naman sigurado. para sa mga hindi maintindihan kung ano pinagsasasabi ko, basta intindihin niyo na lang ako ... kainlangan lang talaga, para sa sarili ko ... patawad kung ngayon madamot ako.

in the deepest of shits!

love gives you the feeling of flying, love gives you a lot of reasons to smile ... also, love gives you that "hunch" feeling when things are on-going behind your back. for a month old relationship, things are supposed be on the sweety sweety moments but i guess mine was one of those who weren't blessed with such.

with the guidance of God, i know things will get better for me. as my friends say, "good riddance" ... im not sure if im ready to hear such statements .. oh well whatever it is, AJA AJA, i will conquer for i know i have Him in my heart and i know He listens and is just right on my side 24/7.

sigh, wish my dad is here ... dad i need your hugs and comforting words ....