we just met last holy week, it was maundy thursday to be exact (shempre holy week na nga, karir ever pa din), pero i didn't made him karir talaga. honestly, during those days kasalukuyang tinitigbak-tigbak at kinikilatis ko sha ... feeling ko kze he's gay that's why im so engross na pagmagsdan at mag abang ng mga gay moves nya.
holy week's over and we're back here in manila; back to reality. he texted me and asked me if im free that same night, and yes we went out. had a couple of beers, chips, had coffee and shared stories. that easter night gimmik was followed by another, and another, and another ... and still counting.
i realized and infairness to him, he laid down his cards to me ... he's not gay, yun nga lang babaero sha. not just the usual chick magnet type of guy, sha na ata ang isa sa mga presidente ng mga babaero orgs sa buong mundo ... saksakan ng pagka chickboy si mokong. yun pa, i call him mokong, don't ask na why ... the term MOKONG speaks for how he is :)
as i was saying, we've been going out for a month now ... pero hindi on a romantic level :( (sad, pero that's how it is eh).
now here goes the sadder part ... yes, i fancy him. oo noh, sobrang crush ko kaya sha! kahit alam kong sobrang tarantado nya, ayos lang ... im confident enough na mapapatino ko sha. after a number of night outs na minsan may others pero most of the time "kme lang dalawa". during one of our kampai nights, we had a chance to talk about our lives and discuss our sentiments, problems, dreams, etc on a more mature manner. he laid his card and i laid mine ... panalo, plus the setting, nasa bedroom bar kme - magkatabi kme!
the next thing i knew, split na sila nung gf nya. hala, tinamaan ata si gago sa mga nilitanya ko sa kanya the night before, kaya ayun nakipag split si gago.
on the contrary of his claims, mejo nalalabuan kze ... malabo na magulo. his claims are a bit different from his moves - (1) he treats me out, be it kampai, coffee, dinner, parking fee, as in treat per se, (2) most of the time kme lang dalawa ang lumalabas, (3) humarap na din kme sa common relatives namin together (shempre nawindang sila), (4) he would hug and kiss me on my chick in public (not in the maniac sense), (5) pinag bubukas nya din ako ng pinto ng car, (6) he would often assist / offer a hand pag tatayo ako, (6) he carries my bag pati the paper bag whenever we go shopping, (7) at marami pang ibang kakaiba .... improving na din kme, dati kze 2 cars pa kme paglumalabas, ngayon 1 na lang!
same week when he told me that they're off, after a couple of days, he blurtted it out - "kris, we're back" .... ah ok ... shempre na windang ang lola mo, hindi basta na windang, nagulantang ang mundo ko - BAKITTTTTT?? NO!!!!!!!!!!! :( the following night, we went out, kme lang ulit 2, he told me the whole story, shempre while he was making kwento, i kept myself composed ... as if hindi ako apektado sa recon nila pero deep inside major OUCHHHHH yon noh. at hindi pa don nagtatapos, just last night he asked me to accompany him sa mega mall coz he'll buy na daw an engagement ring ..... POTAHHHHH naman, hindi bawal bumusina. fine, eh di shempre fly ako sa mega, kahit hurting ang beauty ko, gora pa din. ako ang pinapili, ako ang pinadecide at ako ang nag isip kung ano isusulat sa likod ng ring, ANG SAKIT!!!!!!!! he wants me to even fit the ring, wag na sobra na yon. ang naka engrave sa ring, "love mokong" ... walang name nung gurl para pwede daw nya ibigay sa iba if ever things wouldn't work between them (nabuhayan ako ng loob don, may pag asa pa pala ako, nyahahahaha). while having dinner and coffee we we're talking abt his plans for this saturday naman, nyeters ako ba naman ang gusto nyang mag ayos ng lahat, from balloons, to the tarp, rose petals, notes and all ..... ito lang masasabi ko, "manhiddd ka baaaaaaaaaa???!!!!!!! "it's hurtsssssssssssss - like hell" pero shempre, ako naman si bestfriend (as per mokong), dead ma kuno, pretend na wala ako kebs pero deep inside minumura ko na sha - "ponyeta ka, sa kin mo na lang bigay yung sing-sing!"
later we might see each other again ... kung ano ang agenda ewan ko pa .... anything goes.
to sum this all up, tsong, hindi bawal bumusina ... kahit pitik-pitik lang bumusina ka naman
background song: "wala nang iba" by the bloomfields
My mom joined me for my 1st night, but for the succeeding nights I opted to be alone in the hosp. I dunno I just feel akward about the fact the someone’s watching me while I’m asleep, plus the fact the she has to go to work the following day … thanks but no thanks, I can manage. During those boring times and I’m all alone in my room, I’d text, watch TV, eat, take a nap, and of course the nurses and dr’s would always keep me company. Good friends and a couple of relatives started to come and visit me the following night, chit-chatting big time, laughters and smiles filled my room.