ewan ko

Napapalingon tuwing ika’y dumadaan

Napapangiti, hindi ko alam ang dahilan

Alam kong hindi pwepwedeng maging tayo

Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng, ang ikot ng mundo (:

Susmaryosep, ‘yung dila ay sumabit

Mapahiya na, ‘di na makalapit

Pero ewan ko, ewan ko
Pero napapansin mo na yata

Nakakahiya naman

Gusto lang naman kitang "titigan" ....

Only One Time

Hi God. First, let me thank you for making this trip possible … thank you for giving me the chance to experience how it is living here; living abroad, learning to stand on my own, learning to appreciate new things and learning the essence of humility and I guess, simplicity too.

On the other hand, I miss my life in Manila … how happy-go-lucky I’am there – I miss Kobe, I miss driving Choi, I miss the busy streets of the Metro, I miss papa, I miss my friends – our gimmicks and all, I miss my cd’s, I miss Louie and the rest of the Bloomfields, I miss VCF … oh well, I’ll be in Manila in a snap … I guess I just have to enjoy Jakarta … I’ll be back here, I know that!

Thank you! mmwah!!! (:


Music: Only One Time

baliw na!!!!!

Siyettttttttt!!!!!!!!

Pox, Mahal na kita!!! :)

Another Pox Dream

Yes, I’m still here in Jakarta and I’m starting to get the hang of it, good huhh! My day normally starts around 0730 (Jak time) with of course, breakfast (with Claire, Gilbert, Ian and Queal), 1000 ‘til mid day; I’ll do a li’l work and stuff related to it, followed by a meal, afternoon; frolic around and/or bore myself at home, 1900; dinner and chitchats with “big brother” (hahaha), 2100; go swimming and/or soak myself in the Jacuzzi, 2230 DVD time … next is, “good night world, I’m off!”.

Today, I woke up smiling again … the same reason as with the morning of my birthday … POX! Yes, I dreamt of him again and this time it showed scenes of “physical contact” … oh wait, it’s not what you’re thinking – wholesome still (: the dream just showed me and Pox together … talking and smiling … he’s hands are in my lap and he was a bit clingy there … WHOA, how I wish that dream would come true, hahaha, such a pathetic request!

Oh well, going back … today we’re gonna go bowling – just us girls! Then tomorrow we’re gonna go to a mall – frolic, have coffee and eat J.Co.’s (yeah J.Co.’s ‘can’t wait … yummy! I’ll try to bring some for home), Sunday; service at 1045 at JICF and frolic again. As for the coming week, I dunno yet … Safari Adventure, meet up with Pete this coming Thursday, meetings / interviews, photo ops, clubbing, and frolic, whatever comes ... bring it on (:

Music : Dream Walking (of course it's bec of the Pox Dream)

so far so good

To date, I’ve been here in Jakarta for nearly 3 weeks now, and I say: so far so good! I wasn’t expecting this though, I thought that I would be missing home so bad that working and starting an “independent” life here would not be possible for me. Thanks to Claire and to her family for giving me the warmth that I need, of course I do miss Manila – I hell miss my room, my car, Kobe, my family and friends, my life per se! But again, so far so good (:

Tomorrow’s gonna be another work week, good luck to me … ‘wish that I would get to know Ginny, the expat, and I hope and pray that he’d be my genie who’ll grant me 3 wishes (work, expat status, a date) hahaha, not so much of the 3rd wish, but it would be great if we’ll go out (:

Once again, so far so good huhh!

Birthday Bash

For the 1st time, I celebrated my birthday 2 weeks advance and that’s because of my flight to Jakarta. Here’s what happened …

It was Aug 15, Wednesday … I woke up early (not normal for someone nocturnal like me) and it was drizzling – expected since typhoon Egay was told to hit the Metro that very day. I did nuthin but to sing praise songs to the Lord and ask him not make the rain fall down – well not until it’s 11PM. Around 4PM, I hit the showers and was still singing praise songs, I dressed up (karir mode) and I fixed myself pretty well since I’m expecting the Bloomfields gig not to be postposened. 6PM I called up Eastwood City to confirm on things regarding the gig, unfortunately … sadly … poor me … loser me, the gig was cancelled since the typhoon was said to arrived that night. Upon hearing that from the other end of the phone, my world crashed! I didn’t want to go anymore, I just wanna smoke my lungs out and ask God why he’s doing this to me? With a heavy heart and a frowning face, I dragged myself to Off the Grill to meet with friends.

It was really hard to pretend happy when you’re actually not, there’s nuthin I cant think of but LOUIE … a painted huge smile on my face with a pop-up cloud above me saying, “sigh, ang gwapo mo talaga Louie … Thank you God”, but it didn’t happen, all I thought was just a dream L there I was, sipping my beer, smoking my lungs out, forced to listen to the band’s gig, and got no choice but to mingle with friends and I thank them for bearing with me and for all their efforts.

The night went on and I’ve got no choice but to accept my fate, whewww … I finished around 5 bottles of beer, quite a number of yosi sticks, etc … photo ops here and there, chit chats with friends and with Ebet and Anthony (nice meeting you both).

In a nut shell, though with a heavy heart – I still managed to have fun. I owe my friends specially Ysay big time, for without her everything wouldn’t have taken place. The cake made me smile, I must admit it! Thanks for the person who gave it to me, mwah!

if

if i fell in love with you,

would you promise to be true?

... if i give my heart to you,

i must be sure that

from the very start,

that you would love me more than her.

... so i hope you see that

i would love to love you

and then she will cry

when she learns we are two ...

what if ...

I wish I have the guts to tell you things.
They say spit it out and take the risk,
than forever wonder to a lot of "what might have beens".

But I guess I'm just like the others,
afraid of rejection,
so I'd rather keep the pc to myself,
than be haunted by the dumping scene for the rest of my life

:(

HP bk 7

i started reading the potter books after bk 2 was released in cinemas. i took it from there, i read bk 3 right after and i fell inlove with the way JK wrote everything. i so love the character of sirius black, though he's quite untidy looking it doesn't matter, i love the way he cares for harry and for the others as well ... how i wish i have a godfather like him.

i waited for bks 4, 5, 6 and 7 respectively ... in other words, i simply got hooked with it and became a potter fan :)

anyways ...

i got my own copy of bk 7 1st hour from the store's opening ... i hurried home and started reading. book 7's so damn addicting ... it even caused me to put my mobiles on silent modes just not to be disturbed, haha. i read and read, from chapter 1 to the next, so on and so forth, though reading the epilogue is really tempting i still managed not to :) as i turn the pages from one to the other and finally reaching the last page of the book ... i sensed a certain feeling of achievement, haha, maybe because i was able to finish the book within 2.5 days (not bad for a person who's not so fond of reading). it also made me think about a few stuff with reagrds to some characters, here are some ...

- at first i didnt like hedwig to be dead, but come to think of it, hedwig wouldn't be playing a part in bk 7 actually ... no use for owls, eh.

- moody dead. why did JK decide to kill moody's character? he could have played a good part in the battle. and also, howcome moody wasn't there to accompany harry when he was on his way to face voldemort at the forbidden forest?

- dobby dead :( i so like that elf. too bad he died ... but i admire harry for all his efforts to give dobby a fine resting place.

- lily and snape have the same patronus! like duhh ... does james know abt this? pretty intriguing isn't it ;)

- what happened to aberforth after that horrible night? even after 19 years?

- howcome hogwart's professors are all single? howcome they dont marry, do they even have a life outside that school?

- what abt the stone harry dropped the night of voldemort's death, what if someone see's it and picks it up?

- howcome the malfoy's arent in azkaban?

- how abt the sword? did harry really marked his word and gave it to the goblin?

- how's kreacher? is he still alive and now serving harry, ginny and their family?

- is harry and his family using the noble house of black as their home?

- what happened to harry, aside from the fact the he's now married and has kids ... what does he do for a living? same goes to ron, hermione, luna, etc. well, neville's in hogwarts teaching.

oh well, inspite of those queries and all ... i still consider bk 7 as must read bk (esp for the young ones). it just not talks about harry's journey to fight tom riddle but it speaks of friendship, trust, and other morals and values. it's an easy-read book wherein you could practice your creativity in imagining what you're reading.

i salute you JK for all the potter books that you've written esp for bks 3 and 7. a great applause then!

long live harry potter!

"lumos"

The Bodie Thingy :)

I asked and I prayed ....

He listened and He granted my request!

Though it was just one of my crazy antics,

It still proves that the Lord is just right there ...

He may be invisible but He's there.

And the most important thing of all is that ...

"I'am nearing my dawn, I just have to extend a li'l more patience",

Then, Alas, a Victory!!!

june '07

... everything seems to crumble and i know i have to hold on a li'l tighter. life's a bit shaky this past few weeks and bombs are exploding every now and then ... which makes life a bit sorrowful.

reality bites and it really hurts me.

good thing there's jayjay, louie, rocky and pepe ... "alam mo na yun ... you know what i mean".

the bubble has been burst

As the news burst my bubble, with migraine striking me annoyingly, as I search for the rainbow and found none, I went to God with tears on my eyes. I'm holding on, even tighter this time. I know I've gotta be strong not just for myself but for dad most especially.

Once again the star will be wearing a mask to hide daddy's sobbing princess :(