... alipin ...

ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
di ko man maisip
sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip
malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
sana'y pakinggan mo
ang sigaw nitong damdamin
ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa 'yong yakap ako'y nasasabik
ayoko sa iba
sa yo ako ay hindi magsasawa
ano man ang yong sabihin
umasa ka ito ay diringgin
madalas man na parang
aso at pusa giliw
sa piling mo ako ay masaya
ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa 'yong yakap ako'y nasasabik
pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
basta sa akin wag kang mawawala...
ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa 'yong yakap ako'y nasasabik
pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
malamig man o mainit ang gabi
nais ko sanang iparating
na ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin

No Matter...

No matter where I'am,
No matter what I do,
No matter what the situation is ...
I LOVE YOU!!.

From here to eternity

After twenty eight years of living a single life, of being a happy-go-lucky kikay gurl,

I finally arrived to a decision of taking someone to be my life-long partner.

With this action, I know I have strucked a few, and will shock more …

but DUHHH, the hell do I care.

This is me and this is my life,

I’m just living my life to the fullest, and I just want to be happy.

On the other hand,

I would like you all to know that I’m happily married …

I love my wife so dearly and I wouldn’t allow anything to come our way.

She’s a living proof that God truly exists.

To my angel in disguise …

I, JKCR, take you, KMSM
To be my life partner,
Knowing in my heart
That you will be my constant friend,
And my One true love.

On this special day,
I affirm you
In the presence of God
And our friends present today
My sacred promise
To stay by your side as your life partner,
In sickness and in health,
In joy and in sorrow,
In good times and bad times.

I promise to love you without reservation,
Honor and respect you,
Comfort you in times of distress,
Laugh with you and cry with you,
Grow with you in mind and in spirit,
Always be open and honest with you,
And cherish you
FROM HERE TO ETERNITY!!!

KMSM, with this ring, I wed you.
With my body I honor you.
With all my heart and soul,
I will always love you.
Wear this ring
As a sign of my commitment to love,
Honor and respect you.
Wear it as a symbol of our unity.
And when we are apart,
Let it remind you of my love.

a glimpse ...

for better or for worse,

for richer or for poorer,

in sickness and in health,

'till death do us part!

... baby, i love you so much!

Lights, Camera, ACTION!

“Everybody quiet, camera rolling … ACTION!!!” - Am I ready for this?

When I started practicing psychism, I never thought that one day I would see myself in front of the screen talking about the unseen ones. I decided to open my third eye for the reasons that I simply wanna learn and understand the world of the unseen, practice white magic and explore the unexplored abovementioned world … I said to myself, “this is gonna be fun, ghost hunting and stuff … it takes courage and guts to do such action, hahaha” … --- that’s how it all started, plus my exposure with some psychic friends help paved the way.

It was in September 2005 when one of the big bosses of ABS-CBN learned about my skill and offered me to be part of a show. After quite sometime, everything is now in action, I did a VTR last January, a photo shoot last month, profile shoot for the show’s OBB last February 22, and a quest last Monday … whewww, what’s next, I DUNNO KNOW!!! Geeshh my face and my name will weekly appear on studio 23 --- people will see me, whether or not I’d get recognized by the public, is this what I want??? One way or another, whether I like it or not, I’m now TV personality (excuse me, I’m not a talent!!!)

I remember during the management meeting, one of the bosses told us that this would bring changes in our lives, we have to be extra careful with our actions and everything, we have to behave ourselves and be discreet at all times… gimmicks --- lessen! Whewww!!! Again, I ask myself … is this what I want???

Now that the show has been launched, on cam or off cam I have to be on-guard with everything, damn!! I’m just a plain Filipino citizen who happened to be one of ABS-CBN’s psychic … so to my friends, I’d still be the same person to y’all.

For the Nth time, is this what I want???

My answer … I don’t know, I really don’t know.

just scribbling ...

another day here at home ... i dunno what's gonna happen later .... tonight ... tomorrow or whenever. sigh ... life is such a pc of, i dunno...

as of the moment, there's one thing i'm so sure of, and that's I LOVE KYLA! i love her more than anything in this world. my life changed alot since she came into my life, HAPPY and CONTENTED. yes we do encounter some misunderstandings once in awhile, glad that we were able to patch things up the right way.

kyla - she's the pillar of my life, the one and only pillar i have in my life!

as for the other happenings in my life ... sigh ... i want something to keep me busy; whether a new job or start a business (consulting firm or whatever). the guillermo racket is, wheww, i dunno what's taking them so long. the abs-cbn thingy is now in action (as compared to last year) ... but that thing isn't something that'll keep me busy, shoots/quests aren't that regular, it's a once a week or twice a week thingy. sigh, i dunno ... btw, you know what, i wanna volunteer myself to leyte, help the victims of the landslide incident. i know it's so unlikely of me, but i really i wanna do it, i guess i have to start contacting help agencies and inquire as to how i could do that kawanggawa deed.

oh well, this is all for now ....

The Renewed, the chick magnet and the relationship freak!

If I were to pick just three guy friends, I already have three persons in mind; a renewed lawyer, a chick magnet lawyer and a relationship freak manager! Hahaha, these three guys are the BEST pals one could ever have. We’re all friends, just imagine our composition - a kikay drama queen, a “nagbabagong—buhay na asawa sa kanyang may-bahay, a chick-magnet and cuddly atty-at-law and a relationship freak and heart-throb manager, DAMN!!! Whatta blast!!!

We’ve gone through a lot, from laughters, tears, joys, problems, triumphs, and victories … we’re all there for one another! Bumaha man o bumagyo, tuloy ang kampai!!! Kampai to our friendship!!!

These guys are definitely the one’s to Keep. Wanna know the secret of our friendship … just be yourself, regardless of who you are and what you are --- no more, no less!

New Year!

New year … New hopes, new happenings, new issues, new frustrations and more new happy and/or depressing things that’ll come the way.

But have you ever wondered on what’s there to come? Sigh, I dunno what’s instore for me for this year … Lead me Lord.

Will I be strong enough as the past years? Will I still have the courage I posses, will I still be able to handle things the way I used to? Will I still endure life as it is?

A lot of people including my family think’s I’m strong and brave. But honestly, I’m a weakling … brave??, yeah, to face all my curiosity and to satisfy my hunger on things, but to face problems and heartaches, dang! I’m a weakling! I’m like an infant who needs to be cuddled … a helpless infant who does nothing but weep.

Suicide thoughts, O.D. attempts, smoking my lungs out, are just a few things I used to do whenever I have problems which I can’t pacify … will I still indulge into those things this year??? – Nahh (hopefully not), I made a “pinky swear” with duuude.

But what is it that’s really there, waiting to be unwrapped and explored? Oh well, I really don’t care and I don’t wanna give a damn right this very moment, I have more issues to attend to than to contemplate on things that’ll come my way. Besides, it’ll come at the right place and at the right tik-tak time – whether I like it or not!

As for now, good luck to me and Happy New Year, star!!!

pinky swear

Have you ever love someone so dearly that regardless of everything and anything, you simply love her/him? … you really do, in my case, I really do!!! I say that the kind of love I have for her is “unconditional”. Yeah, you read it right, UNCONDITIONAL, such a strong word huhh!! (there goes my lawyer-friend, copyright pal.) That one time you found yourself crying over someone out of love, because you can feel the love is flowing strongly within your system … the feeling is kinda weird na scary pero masaya na ang galling! – astig dude!

I don’t know how to explain it, or how to expound things … all I know is that I love her and there’s nothing in this world that could ever change the way I’m feeling. I’m happy and I’m contented … ‘couldn’t ask for more! If I were to be asked whether or not I wanna spend the rest of my life with her, I’d say … YES, I’d love to!!!

Now, here goes the other side, … will there be a change of heart??!!?? NO!!!!! wahhhhh!!! I dunno how I’ll take that news if that thing would happen. Yesterday she gave me the assurance that she loves me and she wont leave me, I even asked for a pinky swear (it’s so kiddo, but just for reinforcement). She told me that she wants our relationship to work, and so do I … Oo talaga!!!

Oh well … I’ll just take it from there and count on her that she’ll be true to her words. TRUST her!!! Yeah, trust her that she’ll mark them all (regardless of the situation).

I love her and that will always be the case until my dying day!!!

Before I finally end this entry, I just want her to know that “I love you soo much!!! I know what I’m saying … I say what I mean and mean what I say! Duuude, :)

undas 2005 @ rembrandt ;)

More Today Than Yesterday

I don't remember what day it was

I didn't notice what time it was

All I know is that I fell in love with you

And if all my dreams come true

I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you

With each day comes a new way of loving you

Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander

And if all my dreams come true

I'll be spending time with you

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday

But not as much as tomorrow

I love you more today than yesterday

But, darling, not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow's date means springtime's just a day away

Cupid, we don't need ya now, be on your way

I thank the lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger

And I always will be true

I know you feel the same way too

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday

But not as much as tomorrow

I love you more today than yesterday

But only half as much as tomorrow

31st freak, hugs hugs hugsss!!!

wala lang ...

Anong petsa na? Nobyembre na, sa isang linggo Disyembre na!!! Anak ng potah Pasko nanaman, wala pa kong nabibiling mga regalo para sa mga peoplets, inaanak at shempre para kay Kyla ... but I already have an idea of what to buy for my parents, grandparents, my inaanaks and to Kyla shempre. I'm planning to go shopping come December, once I'm out of the shitty office I'm currently connected with. Gastos ito, hindi enough ang sweldo ... isa lang ibig sabihin nito --- ang mag WITHDRAW!!! wahhhhhhhh mahigit isang dosena ang mga inaanak ko, wala pa don yung ibang kidlets na anak ng mga friends and cousins ... whoa diba, as in WHOA!!!

On the other hand, usapang lovelife naman tayo .... uhmmm, masaya ... kakilig, and the cutest part of it all, I could still feel some "butterflies" .... astig!!! :-) Shempre misunderstandings arises once in a while, it's good that we were able to settle things kaagad. Minsan nakakapikon, pero iniisip ko na lang na walang maidudulot na maganda pag pinatulan ko yung kapikonan na 'yon ... konting pasensya, konting tiis, usap na matino, plus lambing = ayos, tapos ang problema! ;-)