A couple of months ago, a job abroad was offered to me ... I didnt like the idea of leaving Manila because I dont wanna be away from my comfort zone; i dont know how to take the public transpo, i dont know how to cook, i dunno how to do household chores ... how about kobe?, my friends and family? what about my social life? gimmick and all that ... bloomfields! my VCF family, etc etc. Inspite of all those considerations, I went to my interview and gave it my best shot, of course I dunno wanna go home rejected! (ego, i guess). After all the other crazy antics of the company, I was told that I'll be leaving sometime soon ... and I felt sad! Weird! I guess, I'm just the only one leaving who wishes not to leave.
Ever since the beginning, I really didnt like the idea of me leaving Manila for 2 years, so I prayed to God and I asked Him whether or not the job is for me, whether or not it's really from Him or it's from the enemy. I asked Him to do such interventions in order to fully convince me on things, and to date ... hahaha! everything's seem to go well, I already got 1 of the interventions I asked, and I got a "go" message ... SAD!
Oh well, I guess I just have to learn how to fully embrace the fact that I'm leaving soon ... soon to the point that I may not be around for Christmas. Whether or not I like the idea of me working abroad, but since it's from God (not my will, but Your's be done!), I know for a fact that it's for the better .. that it's part of your plan for me (a future and a hope) ...
and because of that plan Lord, I will obey you and put my full trust in no one but You!
Music: Lead me Lord
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