i was almost there, almost there reaching my "i am done with you" stage until that phone conversation we had earlier. i already started to entertain the "i am over you" thoughts and in fairness everything seem to be on track. during our talks last march, you almost freaked out coz you sensed that the attention i was giving you was no longer the same. we parted ways and opted not to be in touch, i was missing you but i managed to ignore it.
darn it, darn you ... why all of a sudden you again popped out and called? you were asking if i missed you, i said YES .. and i know the feeling's mutual ... but please, can we just stop whatever we have, i'm afraid i might fall, and i'm not far from it HONEST!
as i was thinking about things after that call, i realized i'm not over you still, you're someone whom i like so much, someone whom i wanna love and receive love from. we're 2 individuals which i'm sure that if only we met a couple of years back, things would have been so different :( yeah, you're right that you're not married, but still it's not possible .... what a sad reality it is huhh!
i dunno if it's right to see you again, maybe if there are other people joining us, then it's fine, but if it's just the two of us, that i dunno. i wanna see you, i wanna see those eyes and that smile ... but i need all the sanity in the world in order not to fall, i can't afford it ... it can't be! yes, i will be teasing you and i know you will do the same, you will fall into my hook and what's next .... d*mn it, s-a-n-i-t-y come to me!
it's been 9 months now, and now what? can you just please lemme go, stop flashing that smile, stop being sweet, stop looking at me, stop making pa-cute, don't wear any of your barongs when you know we'll have a meeting ..... just do it, just stop!
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Si Bagyo ba ito??
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