have you ever loved a person less than you should? yes you do love him but you were just too afraid to show him that you love him that much because you're afraid to get hurt, and because of that, you made him slipt your hands?!
goshhh!!! it so damn hurts, i thought with me holding back my feelings and showing him just a little love will help me go through this as tough as i should ... that i wouldn't be crying over him when the time comes. i showed him love at the level he's showing his ... it's like im just returning what he's giving me, im just giving him a taste of his own medicine.
but i was wrong, i was so stupid to let him fall for another gurl, come to think of it he was already into me, i was just to busy and was preoccupied then, that's why i gave him less love and attention.
now that he told everything that's been going on between him and the gurl, im so freaking hurting, it made me burst into tears twice.
how could i be so stupid?!? why did i allow things to happen right under my nose? why did i love him less when i know i should have loved him the way i should?
sigh ... i dunno ... im so out of my mind ...
to you john ... i know you dont feel the love in the real sense of it. as what you've said, im just pure talk but no action. i dont know if you'll still believe me when i say i love you ... but i do, i really do! i know what i did, i know i have alot of short comings, i know i didnt prioritize you ... my bad ... thanks for accepting my apologies!
let's just wait for what tomorrow brings, let's see what's instore for both of us. but this i promise you, i'll make it up to you ... i'll show and give you not just plain love but INFINITE LOVE in the real sense of the word. life's too short, if i wouldnt be able to fulfill my promise in this lifetime, i tell you this ... i'll find you in the next, and make sure that by that time i'd be able to. i love you baby!
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