How’s your relationship with your mom? How much do you love her? Sigh, if I were to answer that question, I’d say … uhmmm, we’re not close at all. We don’t have the usual mother-daughter bonding, we often clash … we have a lot of differences and we don’t agree to a lot of things. But yes, I do love her … still, she’s my mom.
Ever since I was a kid, mom and I often fought. I want this but she wants that, worse sometimes she wants nothing, haha! She’s the authoritative kind of parent. She remembers every mistake, every fault, etc., apologies said and done, still everything is very much retained on her memory. Every time we argue, every issue is again being tackled and discussed … sigh, unending issues … we’re just going around circles! Grrrrrr
Honestly, I can’t remember an instance where she became proud of me! I never heard a story from any of her friends saying that my mom was so happy of me because of this and that. I know for a fact that she’s always on-the-go to share stories about my failures, shortcomings and / or anything that she’s against of.
She even thinks that I’m a slut, a drug user, a hooker, etc. Imagine hearing those words from your OWN mother …. Ha! OUCHHH!!!!!
What’s ironic is that, my grandparents and all my relatives loves me so much (esp, the ones on my maternal side). They see me as a good person, while my mom doesn’t, or maybe she just pretends to be blind. Every time I visit my grandparents and/or relatives, I get praises and all … they so like me.
I sometimes confide to my grandmother (mom’s mom) and to my aunts (her sisters) and they do understand where I’m coming from. They too have some issues with my mom. Now, I keep asking myself, is the problem with me, or is it with mom? I always try to be fair and unbiased when I ask myself that question. I always turn-on my “understanding heart” every time I encounter a battle with mom. Though it really really hurts, I just let it go … I’m used to it. Mom’s day wouldn’t be complete without her scolding at me … hahaha!
Above all, I’m hurting, I’ve always been, and I guess I’ll always will … sad but true … I just have to accept the reality of life, that’s the way it is!
Ever since I was a kid, mom and I often fought. I want this but she wants that, worse sometimes she wants nothing, haha! She’s the authoritative kind of parent. She remembers every mistake, every fault, etc., apologies said and done, still everything is very much retained on her memory. Every time we argue, every issue is again being tackled and discussed … sigh, unending issues … we’re just going around circles! Grrrrrr
Honestly, I can’t remember an instance where she became proud of me! I never heard a story from any of her friends saying that my mom was so happy of me because of this and that. I know for a fact that she’s always on-the-go to share stories about my failures, shortcomings and / or anything that she’s against of.
She even thinks that I’m a slut, a drug user, a hooker, etc. Imagine hearing those words from your OWN mother …. Ha! OUCHHH!!!!!
What’s ironic is that, my grandparents and all my relatives loves me so much (esp, the ones on my maternal side). They see me as a good person, while my mom doesn’t, or maybe she just pretends to be blind. Every time I visit my grandparents and/or relatives, I get praises and all … they so like me.
I sometimes confide to my grandmother (mom’s mom) and to my aunts (her sisters) and they do understand where I’m coming from. They too have some issues with my mom. Now, I keep asking myself, is the problem with me, or is it with mom? I always try to be fair and unbiased when I ask myself that question. I always turn-on my “understanding heart” every time I encounter a battle with mom. Though it really really hurts, I just let it go … I’m used to it. Mom’s day wouldn’t be complete without her scolding at me … hahaha!
Above all, I’m hurting, I’ve always been, and I guess I’ll always will … sad but true … I just have to accept the reality of life, that’s the way it is!
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