parted wondering

last friday, my class ended 5 minutes before 7, had dinner with a guy friend then went back to school for he has to attend to his 7PM class. i was thirsty for alcohol so i opted to stay in school and wait for my friends till they finish their class until i saw francis, yes The Francis! he was reviewing for his bar, then i said "2 bottles, game!", he gave in into my invite so we convoyed our way to this grill in district 1, qc.

at first we did our usual talks - law school, bar, miriam friends, politics, until i dunno how we ended talking about our past, yeah OUR HANGING STORY. here's a brief story of it ...

we used to be schoolmates way back MC days, we were even classmates in philo BUT we never spoke a word, not even a smile or nod, nada nuthin at all. we both know each other coz we've got a lot of common friends but still, the hell do i care, ive got no business with you. until early january 2010 when we exchanged FB messages that led to hours of conversation on the phone, dinners and drinking sessions. yes, it was just the 2 of us, some sort of a "date". we're both aware of our feelings for each other. he assisted me when i was filing my application to the institute, he even had a gig once during that summer and he asked me to watch him ... from 2 political rallies, i headed to metrowalk wearing marked a shirt for i no longer have the luxury of time to change and fix myself up, and yeah i made it to the gig, i was a little late though!

after that night, i got hell busy with campaign and he's busy as well attending to student council concerns, until i saw tagged pictures of him in FB, pictures taken in puerto galera with his ex! OUCHH so i told myself, enough with him and move on. june came and i didnt text him about my class sked, i just headed to school and go straight to my class, until i received a call from him asking if im enrolled, he met me at the school entrance and we went to the RA and he asked me to sit beside him. from that time on, we never spoke about what happened to us, not a single word. he would introduce me to his friends as his college friend and vice-versa. once in a while we would go out still, but still no us talks. until last friday ...

he told me he's still there! he told me that he even reached the point that it was already me over his ex but still he just cant do it for he's afraid things might not work out and he doesnt wanna lose me. he was hurt when i told him about popo and was hoping i would read between the lines for he wanted to say NO, but i didnt get it so i went on with popo. a lot has been said that night. i told him that i would often ask God who he is to me, only to find out he's asking the same. for me, francis is someone special no matter what .. and he knows that, and he told me the same. we are both wondering what's the purpose of this friendship ... we're both no ordinary persons to each other, but whatthahell why is the universe not allowing our love to prosper? he asking to spend the night with him, i opted to leave ... he said if one day we would have the chance to be in the scenario, then there'll be no backing out ... i said yes! we he embraced me and we kissed, and he said "d*mn the kiss is still the same".

he walked me to my car, it was a bit sad scenario ... we parted wondering "what might have been". while i was driving, he sent me a text then i asked, "what's this night for" and he said "only time will tell".