backbone

the more i get to see you, the more i miss you ... the more i long for you. but is there anything left for us to share? are we just gonna forever play mind games, read between the lines and dissect each posts?

you said you're moving on, but how come your actions are contrary to your claims? never the less, here i am, waiting in vain ... worse i dunno if there's a reason for me to wait ... yeah pathetic! we once talked about julia roberts' line in notting hill, and you asked me if there was ever a time that i uttered such, and i replied in the negative ... now lemme say it to you ...

"i'am also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to her"

(yeah yeah another pathetic move) .. pathetic it may be, but i'd rather give up my pride than forever lose you.

on the contrary, im thinking of rather placing you in my backbone instead of having you in my heart. why is that, it's for the main reason that if i once again place you in my heart, there's a chance of being wounded. but if i place you in my backbone, you will be my source of strength and it is because of you that i'm standing still ... you will be my foundation. no expectations, just the sincerest and the purest of loves, "love in the shade of blue". mushy as it may sound, but i know i'm making sense one way or the other.

i love you so much, and there's no doubt about it. if only i could turn back time, i know better this time. i dunno if you're my greatest love, i dunno if you're the one who got away ... but i know i love you ... i love you still, and you know that.